okie so the reason why ive been gone for like 5 days is because my laptop finally broke. there was a serious over heating problem deep within the hard drive that was NOT easily fixed, so i kept a fan right beside it to keep it cool. it worked, for quite a while, but it finally busted about 5 days ago. i was never dependent on my laptop or internet, so it wasnt a big deal that i didnt have one because i knew id get a new one eventually. well, just today, my dad and i were out christmas shopping and we went out to future shop. now a day earlier my dad had told me about a laptop he found that was on sale for black friday, and it fit my needs. so we got it today. its a gateway laptop, a company ive never heard of but apparantly my dad has so he says its good. its a 17 inch screen, just like my old one so its a bit bigger than normal laptops (15 inch) which fits my needs for the graphics i do. i kind of feel bad because not having a laptop wasnt that big of a deal for me but now i have a new one immediately. i kind of feel like i dont deserve it, i mean this years christmas for my family is a huge one, i am already aware i am getting a shit ton of gifts and i feel bad that theres been so much money spent on me. last years christmas was very small, but this year is huge, and a ton of money has already been spent on not just me, but everyone. pretty much every year one of the 3 kids, myself, my cousin, or my brother each have our 'own' christmas. for us it basically means one kid gets more presents than another. and we dont even do it purposely, it just kind of happens. before you go off with your trolling favoritism, its just something that happens naturally and its only like 2 or 3 gifts more than another person, and it doesnt really make a difference. or its one expensive biggie gift. the past few years its been either my cousin or my brother, and not me. im not upset, i couldnt care less, its just how its worked out. but this year, ive actually found items that id like for christmas, and before i even got to my family with my list, i find out theyve already bought me a bunch of gifts. so this year, is MY christmas, and thats pretty exciting. thats why i feel bad for getting a new laptop this close to christmas. this new laptop is actually being taken out of my birthday and christmas of next year, so in the end it adds up.
another thing is that im probably not going to be as active on here as i used to be. the reason being is that the 5 days without a laptop were actually really nice because it gave me a chance to finally get away from the succubus that is the interwebs and focus on my traditional drawings, my guitar, being OUTSIDE, and other hobbies. so now that i have my interwebs back and the freedom of a laptop, im hoping that i wont get roped into the internet and not use it all day everyday. <333
if youre still reading at this point, i give you credit for going through this boring journal. anyways, thanks for reading <33